I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
My heart goes out to you. I’m a dog lover and I get attached to them. My condolences go out to you on the loss of your best friend.
Take care and thanks for sharing this story of Dozer.
Thinking of you Nagi. May you rest in so much love, Dozer 🩵
Your words are so beautiful, like a prayer for Dozer & shows what a jewel of a human heart you have. You will always dream & think of him, just as I always still dream of my beautiful little white poodle, Ellie. But, you were very fortunate to have had him to love. Lol, Rosemary
The tears flowed freely as I read this, both in sharing your pain and the memory of the loss of Tiny my Irish Wolfhound a couple of years ago. The pain does not go away, but it does become easier to smile and laugh at the memories and photos of our lost family members – because that is what they are. The tears will still come, but not in the flood that happens without warning in the weeks and months following the loss. And yes as time goes by, and the memories jump to front of mind as you visit places you shared with Dozer, you will be able to smile as the tears come. In those moments the love seems to outshine the pain, and the memories of joy make the tears less painful. my heart goes out to you.
My thoughts are with you Nagi. I hope that the memories of “better times” will help you during the weeks ahead. Sending love and hugs from Ashburton NZ
My deepest condolences Nagi, and may the pain ease soon and all the love and memories remain. Thank you for sharing you and Dozer’s journey with us.
So sorry for your loss and the pain you’re feeling. Thank you for sharing this time with us all.
RIP and safe journey.
I’m so sorry for your loss. We grieve as deeply as we love. Pleaae take your time. Hugs to you.
Dear Nagi, So very sorry to hear your sad news 😔😢
What a great life Dozer had with you – Thank you so much for allowing us to share Dozer’s life with you. RIP sweet Dozer 🐾❤️
Oh Nagi
There are no words that will help right now.
Your life will not be the same… and
Your heart will always have the heartache left by the loss of beautiful, funny, loving Dozer.
Dozer will be a part of your soul and soooooo many of your readers forever.
Rest in peace Dozer, your a good boy!! 🥺❤️🩹
We are all here beside you Nagi, I know you can feel the love we have for you and Dozer. ❤️🩹
So very sorry for your loss. I loved reading about Dozer and his adventures. He will be greatly missed. RIP old lad.
I was hoping, I wanted… I am truly sorry. I know what it is to loose a loved one, someone so special, someone that brought so much joy and filled our life. I’ll tell you what I told myself when I went through the same you are going through, he is not suffering anymore, he is happy running and playing and talking naps and you will see him some day. But now, you have the right to feel exactly the way you feel 🩵
Oh Nagi
There are no words that will help right now.
Your life will not be the same…
Your heart will always have the heartache left by the loss of beautiful, funny, loving Dozer.
Dozer will be a part of your soul and soooooo many of your readers forever.
Rest in peace Dozer, your a good boy!! 🥺❤️🩹
Your beautiful tribute to Dozer brought tears to my eyes .He is in doggy heaven.RIP Dozer
Oh no! Good bye dear Dozer. You and your adventures will be truly missed by all of us.
Nagi, thank you so much for sharing Dozer with us.
I had tears reading your beautiful post. I lost my cat 2 years ago and I still can’t look at photos so be kind to yourself and remember he had the life of a superstar.
Oh Nagi, I am sobbing for you xxxx thank you for sharing your beautiful boy xxx love you Dozer xx rest in peace
I am so very sorry for your loss and I know how you feel losing the lovely Dozer.
I just lost my dog Tobi on January 20th after 15 years with him. Everything feels so empty.
I’m so so sorry for your loss. ❤️ thank you for sharing Dozer with all of us. Hugs from New Jersey.