I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dear Nagi, my heart goes out to you. Losing your beautiful Dozer is extremely hard but I’m hoping the wonderful memories you have will help get you through this difficult time. You never get over losing someone special but you learn how to live without them. Wishing you lots of love and peace. Anne
I have never in my 58 years cried over a dog I have never met, but Dozer has tears streaming down my face.
Wishing you all the strength you can muster to get through these first few weeks without your boy, Nagi, and hoping you find some comfort in the love and memories.
DEAREST Nagi, so-so,sorry about Dozer. We, your readers,, loved him in our own way. Always looked to se how he was. i still miss my dog gone 18 months ago, No easy way. As you say, remember him with love.
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my 17 year old fur baby two weeks ago. It’s so hard but the joy they have bought you while you had them is worth it. xx
So sorry for your loss 💔 all your stories and pics have shared Dozer’s beautiful soul. He will be sadly missed. 🌹🩵
What a beautiful letter to Dozer.
Thank you for sharing you memories over the years.
Your words are so beautiful, like a prayer for Dozer & shows what a jewel of a human heart you have. You will always dream & think of him, just as I always still dream of my beautiful little white poodle, Ellie. But, you were very fortunate to have had him to love. Lol, Rosemary
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I’m deeply sorry for your loss, Nagi. He was an amazing one. May the cherished memories of Dozer bring you comfort in this time of sorrow xx
Good bye Dozer. Although you could not be home on your last days, Nagi was your home and that’s all that you needed.
Dear Nagi,
The only thing I can say from the bottom of my heart: Strength!!
Dear Nagi
My heart breaks for you.
I was intending to write before your heart was broken by the sad loss of your beautiful boy and chief taster but now it is with the sadness of saying goodbye.
No one could have had a more loving and best friend than Dozer, may he rest peacefully.
Thinking of you and sending much love and hugs,
Sharon
Hi Nagi, so sorry I know how terrible it is, can’t read your post I’d cry to much, really really sorry 💕
Im soo sorry to hear about Dozer my heart breaks for you 💔
May God bring comfort to your heart during this time of your loss. My prayers are with you. May His grace and love bring you peace and comfort your soul .
Dear Nagi,
My Heartfelt Condolences for your loss of Family and Friend, Dozer.
I believe his Spirit will be near to you as life goes along. May His Soul Run Free Over the Rainbow Bridge, where those before him Celebrate Dozer’s Arrival. Till you meet again.
And tears are running down my face Nagi too. Dozer was much loved and admired. I don’t know how you managed to look after him and keep going flat out. He lived an exceptional life and will always be with you every step of the way. He will bring you peace and solace, there is no doubt about that. We will all miss him greatly. Jx
Oh Nagi I’m so very sorry you and Dozer had to say goodbye. What a lucky soul he was to have been so loved and cherished, and what a gift to have him in your life for so long. It’s never long enough, but what wonderful memories he’s given you. 💔🐾
You will someday realize that your love was definitely enough, you gave each other the true gift of unconditional love and support. You will always have that in your heart to guide you, especially during this difficult time. Be kind to yourself, it sounds like your Dozer would want you to smile in between all the tears you shed for him. May God bless you both.
Nagi, I am so sorry for your loss. I still miss my dear ole lab, Annie who passed in 2018.
I love all of my pups (2 now), but she will always hold a special place in my heart, like your Dozer. Love and hugs to you from California, XOXO