I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I am thinking so much of you and Dozer. In sadness. Janet.
Dozer couldn’t have had a better mummy than you Nagi. Xxx
Thank you Nagi for sharing your special friendship with the beautiful Dozer all these years. We will miss him & his input so much but know that he will be holding doggy heavens catering to a very high standard.
I am so sorry. 😢. Sending love and strength your way.
Dozer will always be with you in your heart. xxx
I’m so very sorry for the loss of your boy. I have loved watching your life with Dozer since 2020 and you both mean so much to me, that it feels like a member of my family has passed away. I am holding my almost 16yo boy (cocker spaniel cross) just a little bit tighter in memory of your beautiful Dozer. ❤️
I was teary eyed as soon as I saw the date dozer died. I’ve only just started to follow your recipes AND bought your books and in that short time ive felt ive known Dozer much much longer. Dozer will still be beside you as your guardian angel & still loving your cooking. ⚘️🦮😢🧚
Oh, Dear Nagi;
My heart goes out to you. I couldn’t stop crying after reading your posts. I have two dogs myself. And one of my boys is getting up there in age. I can emphasize how you’re feeling and channel my condolences.
May Dozer rest in peace. And may you find comfort in knowing that Dozer will never be forgotten and that he is immortalized on your website.
Biggest Hugs!
Amanda
Nagi,
So very sorry for your loss. He was a very lucky pup to have you as his human, and you were lucky as well to have Dozer as your best buddy. Condolences from Arizona.
Dearest Nagi,
Thank you for letting us share the mutual love of you and Dozer. Now we shed tears with you.
Take your time, take care of you.
I am simply heartbroken for you,
Dearest Nagi,
I am so heartbroken 💔 reading your loving and ‘all-knowing’ words and peeling onions here 😭
I have to say, you have theee BEST collection of photos with your pet that I have ever seen!
I agree with you – you’ll have the biggest smile one day when you look back on all your memories as Dozer’s Mum.
Rest in Love Dozer and a huge virtual hug to you Nagi 🤗 💕 💞
Flooding my floor with tears. A dogs love is completely unconditional. Imagine a world where humans were more like dogs, how wonderful would that be. So sorry for your loss and thank you Dozer for bringing endless joy. I smile every time I see your face when I open your recipe books.
So sorry for your loss of Dozer and sending you big hugs.
Those we loved do not go away, they walk beside us every day, Unseen, unheard, so loved, so missed, so very dear.
Love and prayers for you Nagi, and blessings for Dozer in his new world. xxx
I am so sorry to hear this news.
You will see him again one day.
He will be missed by everyone here.
Nagi that is a wonderful letter and I can’t stop crying myself it is so hard all my love
Thank you Nagi for sharing your special friendship with the beautiful Dozer all these years. We will miss him & his input so much but know that he will be holding doggy heavens catering to a very high standard.
Nagi, you are such an amazing talented and strong woman. You also have an such a wonderful outlook on life. It doesn’t matter what we look like how much we weigh what matters it to be true to yourself show respect and decency toward others keep your wicked sense of humour and follow your heart, Allow as much time as you need to greive? You will be fine lovely lady ì
I have no words! I am so very sad for you Sending big hugs!