I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Oh, my dear girl. I am crying for your loss – your beautiful, faithful, loving Dozer. You gave him the bestest life ever. He will be with you always. Arms around you across the miles from Vancouver, Canada. I told my Marcus and my Jesse to find him over the Rainbow bridge, and keep him company til you are together again. .
I’m so sorry for your loss. Rest in peace Dozer ❤️
I can’t imagine that day when I have to say goodbye to my little Beau. After losing pets before I know exactly how you are feeling right now. You will attract another Dozer into your life when you least expect it. Until then he knows he was loved ❤️
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This is beyond sad… Dozer was loved worldwide. He was an ever present loved dog in all our lives. Your grief must be incredible. I am so sorry. I hope the days ahead are not too dark for you. We all feel for you and feel so deeply the loss of dear Dozer. What a beautiful boy he was. Fly high darling Dozer. We will look after your Mumma. We will never forget you. Forever loved and missed.
I feel your pain, Nagi as I have been there too! Time is a healer and you will be joyful of your memories with Dozer one day. Give yourself time to grieve. You need that! Please know I am thinking of you!
Eileen
My heart is heavy and I’m crying as I read about Dozer. So sorry for your loss. It hurts. Stay strong.
Take care and lots of hugs.
I am so, so sorry to hear about beautiful Dozer… I always loved all your posts with him🥹…he had a beautiful, loved life and will be so missed😭…sending love to you Nagi,at this very difficult time❤️
Oh Nagi, thankyou for sharing beautiful Dozer with the rest of the world! He will be sorely missed by everyone, much love to you and all of the recipetin team xx
I feel your pain Nagi – it is so difficult when they go on before us! Dozer knew how loved he was and you know how much he loved you. Be gentle with yourself going forward, give yourself time to grieve and heal. All our hearts are with you at this sorrowful time xxx
As I sit here on this sunny Monday afternoon to see this farewell to your beautiful Dozer pop up, fills me with great sadness, sorry to hear this. I’ve loved your dozer posts along with your yummy recipes. Dogs especially are incredible animals, treasure the memories and may he rest in doggy heaven x
So many sweet memories to hold
Unconditional love is taught to us by our puppies, it is a rare love.
May we all try to emulate the love received by our dogs, the world would then find happiness.
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Best wishes chef, my son lost the housecat and now won’t replace her Dozer would want you happy, double happiness and go to a pound and give someone a second chance
“When we lose someone we love we must learn not to live without them but with the love they left behind.”
Crying rivers with you Nagi.
Such a sad time
Such beautiful words Nagi 💙
Take comfort that he felt your love all the way to heaven…..
Thankyou for sharing him with us, we are all heartbroken 💔
Nagi- that is the most beautiful tribute to your gorgeous Dozer. Take care and thank you for sharing..
Oh Nagi,
As I sit here at my work desk with a million tears streaming down my face, I keep remembering meeting you and your beautiful boy and what a lasting impression you made on me. Absolute and unbridled love for each other for all to see. Thank you for sharing him with us. My deepest condolences to you on the loss of beautiful Dozer. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m in tears here reading this. Dozer was so loved and had the best life a dog possibly could! You have him everything! You are the best dog mama! Sending hugs. ❤️
Dearest Nagi, your words are beautiful just like Dozer. There is nothing like the pain of losing a dog but it is so worth it for the complete joy & love that they bring to our lives. I am hugging my Goldie just that little bit closer today. sending you all the love in the world xx